i've returned

my computer got a trojan on it and i think that i said this on my old computer. i had to wait for my grandma to buy me a new pc, so i'm just getting it set up now. i guess that my old pc was old. i got it from a fundraiser that my old math teacher from high school entered me in.
i have mold in my shower. the supervisor of the living program that i'm in cleaned it with some stuff that she sprayed on it. she said nonchalantly that i might feel a little sick because of the mold. she didn't seem so concerned.
i'm going to be trying out a program that gets me working a job. my grandma seems to be really interested in getting me working with computers. i don't know why she's so interested in getting me working with computers, maybe it's because it wouldn't require any physical work. the last time that i was asked if i wanted to work, i said that i didn't want to work because i wanted to focus on my rehab. i was also worried about maurice being left alone, don't ask me why i was so concerned about maurice. i think about maurice right now and i think that i shouldn't let anyone else stop me, even if i do feel worried or sorry for them. i need to find my independence and i shouldn't let anyone else be the barrier to my independence. the supervisor of this living/housing program said that it'd be a way to meet people. she said that my health care coordinator asked about the program and she told her that i wanted to start with computers, not bagging merchandice like i seen when i checked out the program. she also claims that i would need to start out doing easy work like that til i found something that really would fit me. now, i don't want to get stuck doing work that i don't like doing and continue doing it just because they lie and tell me that eventually i'll get to do something that fits me.